_dunchh evaa lett mee go oR ii will fall andd collapse*

((x

2005-05-07T14:17:00.000-07:00

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY JERELINEE!!!

ihateuu *

2005-05-07T14:16:00.000-07:00

l0lls * maybe iits tiime t0 llet go .

i dun wna h0ld on to iit

wen iits not miine .

i dun wna make any of us miserable .

go f0r wh0 euu want bahhs .

maybe we are not meant to be .

yeahhs . ((:

haiis . tiime may heal wounds

but iit lleave scarr .

the scar will remaiin f0reva .

anwayy . i will stop cryiing lers .

dun wna bother anymore .

br0kennsmiile -

miid year iish here .

i doubt i can concentrate .

- memoriies are to deep to be fergotten-

-im just a gerl who wants euu back in liife-

-wen iits tiime to llet go ; i got to llet go-

ii ll0ve euu yesterday .

ii llove today .

ii ll0ve euu tml .

and fer the rest of my liife ,

i wiill be ll0ving euu .

heartbr0kenn .

2005-05-06T23:29:00.000-07:00

haiis. it can never be the same agaiin.

my heart iish shattered ; into pisces .

tears just fall . why must he tell miie .

i wna take iit as i heard nthh .

but i cant . my heart ish shattered .

im hurt//lleavemiietobleed.

i duno wad to do.

i wna ask for a break up but ;

i dun dare and i cant bear .

h0w? tell miie wad am i suppose to do.

im just a gerl whu want her back in liife .

tearrs just keep falling .

h0w? how? how?

i cant take iit anymoree .

it gonna be a wound .

a wound dat will nvr heal .

cant be bothereedd .

ll0ve ; liife sarkks !

lleave miie alone.

euu will neva knoe

how much euu mean

to miie . shatteredd .

i regret the decision

i made on 10.04 !

im very

miserable !!

saddiistiic *

2005-05-05T17:47:00.000-07:00

weets . so l0ng diin blog lerhhs .

just change myy bl0gskin .

iits so niice . ahhs . i ll0ve iit .

todae had so muchh test siiahs .

haiis * tml still got chii paper .

haiiy0hh . im deadd . ;x

friidae iish c0ming soon . yeahhs *

dun need go sko0l and see s0me ppl .

l0lls. i so badd . yeahhs .

hahahahahas. ;d

i will stop here .

s0tong sistahhs rawkks *

..

2005-04-22T22:37:00.000-07:00

d0tss. had bandd agaiin.
i tink i reallie got to wake up.

tiime iish not waiting ferr miie.

i still havenn study yet.

siighhs. those fwenship thingy.

make miie cant concentrate at all.
i tink i wna hack care everything.

iif not, i gonna fail my mid year.

my parents has been very niice to mee.

dun wna disappoint dem by my results.

CARINA! WAKE UP!

i reallie got to wake up.

i must cut down on things ,

i shld not spend on lerhhs.

i want go study. niite.

xiiaozhuu <3

2005-04-20T20:28:00.000-07:00

wo hao leii ; hao leii.
suddenly i fiind myself so tiired.

tiired of everythiing.

behiind da smille iish

everything euu neva knoe.

nuthiing speciiall happenn.

oh YAH!

i went PAW todaezz.

euu believee iit.

im so disappointed widd MYSELF.

siighhs` can tiime pass faster.

each daezz iish killing miie.

-shout-

i will stop here. =((

diao`(:

2005-04-19T19:14:00.000-07:00

siians`((: had geography re-test.
everyone c0piie here, c0piie derhhs.

d0ttx` exam iish cuming.
yet im still slacking. useless miiehs.

haiis. im breaking down.

fiinding myself so useless.
i duno how i face ppl if i go techh.
iMUSTstudy.

IMUSTstudy.
iMUSTstudy.
bleahhs~ dats going to be a
EMPTY PROMISE
tuhh myself again.
iSARKS.
iSARKS.
iSARKS.

gotten stop here. bbuaix.

swiit memoriies`

2005-04-18T20:16:00.000-07:00

haiis. so tiired today`)=

have napfa test, 2.4, aiyohh.

i tiink i gonna faiil badly ferr everything.

the 5 statiions. i did badly.

suddenly i realise im such a failure.

rYtexx? siighhs` wad tuhh duu?

gotta study another half of my work.

having geography re-test tml.

l0lls. i dun wna be sad. tearrs.

i wna stop here. bbuaix.

take a stepp back ;
muhh words are cold ;
i dun want dem to hurt euu.

bleahhs`

2005-04-17T13:32:00.000-07:00

uhh. another meaningless dae.

wahahas. havenn duu my hwkk.

later g0iing my kuziins b'dae party.

den still havenn touchh my hwk.

diie`(: im so lazyy.

can someone help me out. =)

tml monday alreadyy.

so fastt. siians.

got bandd agaiin. b0redd.

kkaess, dun grumble anymore.

stop here. takkaires.

__wo xiiang huii dao guo qu*

Good Love Never Dies

2005-04-17T12:19:00.000-07:00

Good Love Never Dies

for the rest of my days

i want you by my side

tell me what can i say to keep you in my life

cause i can never relax

gotta keep it exciting

make it attractive

keep it alive

keep you coming back

im always so frighten you'll see through my act

when the fire is out and i've given up

you come running out and you build it up

you tell me good love never dies

it only hurts when we burn our eyes

from staring too long at the sun

you gotta throw your hands up and the let the night come

tell me what can i say to keep you in my life

all the words slip away when i look in your eyes

cause i can never relax

gotta keep it exciting

make it attractive

keep it alive

keep you coming back

i'm already fighting to keep what i have

when the fire is out and i've given up

you come running out and you build it up

you tell me good love never die

sit only hurts when we burn our eyes

from staring too long at the sun

you gotta throw your hands up and the let the night come

take your chances and let the night come

lolls. ;

2005-04-16T16:47:00.000-07:00

x_/andd afterr alL ii've been thruu.
i l00k backk, reflectiing 0n 0ur pastt ;;
whenn tthings seem. so w r 0 n g..
ii lo0k aroundd & there.s n0 0ne dere f0r me-]]
budd -y0u- were. even th0ughh i don`t see euu dere;
ii kn0w u are; just like the starrs tht diisappear during dayy //
`thenn ii reaLiise .. eu`re tthe 0nlyy 0ne f0r miie& iif i have t0.
ii want euu tu kn0w. i`lL always be here waiiting fer euu.
\_xferr __ u s * -]].-.x
[ w ii th everyy breathh i takee; ii`m callingg y0urr namee ]
p.s, i love you.and we`lL stannd t0getherr. tilL we f a l L .
budd i`lL h0ld yurr hannd thr0ughh everythiing tht may c0mee.
- - - [x[ ii wilL neverr lett euu g0. ]x]
- - -- ii c r 0 s s m yy h e a r tt .
` y0uu aree tthe b0y ii wilL alwayys [l0ve & ad0re].

weeets.

2005-04-16T16:05:00.000-07:00

back to bl0g agaiin. =))

havenn touch my hwk yett.

later must go and do lia0o. bleahhs~

just taken my lunchh,

my daddy co0k ferr me derhhs.

so niice yeahhs? ahahas.

still thiinking, later shld i go out,

wiith my parents.

to theiir fwens hsee.

later go already, so b0redd.

i rather stay at hme and online.

betta. ahahas.

kkaes. g0tta stop here.

wna chat onlinee.

=))

iif destiiny bought us together ;

wiill fate briing us apart.

imisseuu`

2005-04-15T18:33:00.000-07:00

weets. haf home econ and band todaezz.

so siians lorhhs, the home econ,

combiine wiid 1N2, den the class so noiisy.

raooos. mdm chee keep saying boutx boiis.

diiao* so boredd. hehees.

i finally touchh my instruments todaezz.

so diirty siiah. i dun likee.

hehees. x)

mmm, band has becum stricter. =x

nopes more funn alreadyy.

anyway, once time its lost,

its foreva lost. yeahhs?

hehees. gotta stop here.

bbuaix. imisshiim`

bleaHhs.

duhhs.

2005-04-14T19:55:00.000-07:00

lolls. its been so long evaa siince i post.
bleahhs` quiite lazyy larhhs. =))
mmm. miid year examm iish cumingg.
g0nna study soon, frm nxt week on.
hehees. dun wna faiil anymoree.

lots of thiings happenedd.
and i guess it can't be settledd f0reva.
yeapps, ahahas.
there are some changes in liife.
whiich i havenn make.
gonna decidee soon.
dun wna hold on to iit.

i dun want any of us to regret.
yeahhs. hehees.
but i scaredd i might regret
afterr making the decisioon.
duhs, gotta stop here.
bbuiax.

sighh`

2005-04-05T06:51:00.000-07:00

sighh` duno why happen agaiin.
i had enuffz, reallie enuffz.
i can't stop my tears flowing.
diis fwenshiip sArkks.
all the promiises we make between each other.
its all empty promises. all i can say.

tears jus flow fErr diis fwenshiip.
i duno why. wad life iish actuali about.
they are just lying. lying to each other.
wad iish diis reallie all about.
my heart achess. tearrs.
problemm jus cum after one another.

w0xiiangnii`

2005-04-03T23:00:00.000-07:00

diin blog fErr s0mee tymexx leRhhs.
im back blogging aagaiin. =))
lots and lots of things happen.
sighh` i duno how i faceee him tml.
how i hope frm now till foreva iish holidaezz.
hehees. =x
oh yah! i fall in love with tong hua diis song.

lalalas.
wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li.
ni ai der na ge tian shi.
zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng,
zhi pang shou hu nii.
nii yao xiiang xing.
xiang xing wo men hui xiang
tong hua gushii li,
xingfu he kuaii shii jieju.

i fall deeply in love wit diis song.
mwahahas. so late lerhhs.
i still havenn pack my bag.
sighhh` busy with the project.
kkaes. gotta stopp here.
w0xiiangtaa` smauckks*

awww~ iLOVEhiim.

2005-03-29T20:10:00.000-08:00

booo~ stay back in class for class deco agaiin.
but i diid nuthing agaiin. im a failuree.
sighh` lotsa of thinggs happen todaezz.
but good things happen too. =))
me and jereline problemm solvedd.
I LOVE JERELINE!
dunchh eva take her away frm me.
ahahas~ im crazziie rytex. i knoee.

oh yah!! we cook friied rice todaezz.
so niice lehhs. delicious.
bleahhs~ i eat during break.
so niice~ so happie. booo~
still got wad arhhs.
dun haff leRhhs.
g0nna stop here.
bbuaix. love me nort.

boooo~

2005-03-28T19:02:00.000-08:00

back to updatezz .
urmmms. lifee iish still like datzz.
boooO~ actually dere iish maths test todaezz.
happily to sayy. itss cancel. change to wedd.
bleahss~ todaezz haf PE, so siianxx.
hehees. run until everywhere oso paiin.
mwahahas. =))

dunchh feel like going to sko0l.
duno whyy. i just can't pay attentionn.
sighh` diis can't carriie on.
if not im gonna do well agaiin.
booo~ anywayy. put diis aside first.
ohhs, just gotta back my organiser.

duno whiich teacher go sign
until my book so erxiin. eeek.
ahahas~ gonna stop here.
bbuaixx. take care worrs.

blah. . blah. .

2005-03-26T13:01:00.000-08:00

ell00ox~ im back updatingg.
awww. nopes one iish at hme noww.
so peaceful. lastt nytex sms wid mark till damm late.
just gett to knoe him. so harpiie. =)
hehees. habenn finishh my hwkk yet.
so lazyy to even t0uchh it. bleahs~

i reallie hope everthing g0nna be fine on mondaezz.
i pray. prayingg very very hardd.
sighh* wadds like all about without fwens.
i reallie duno. im lost. reallie lost//.
i dun wna post sad thingy but nopes one to share.

i g0nna stop here. updatezz more tonytexx.
wna chat onlinee. bleahs~ so boredd!
iiLOVEuu*

harpiie ;D

2005-03-25T19:45:00.000-08:00

woohoos~ out the whole daezz todaez.
actually, going to my grandma hse to swiim.
as my kuzins didn't bring their swimming trunks.
we went to the playground and play for about 1hr.
blah. . blah. . blah . .
the playground was damm fun.
i keep shouting and shouting siahhs.
so harpiie. ;D

i criied dis afternoon becoz of wad happen,
to me samantha and jereline fwenshiip.
i realise everything ish out of control NOW.
someone keep breaking our fwenshipp.
i duno wad to do. i told jereline .
let nature take it own course bah.
sighhs. =x

okiies. will stop all diis alreadyy.
nvm. g0ing swimming tml. to my auntie hse.
hurray! bleahs~ im so childishh.
i wna forget everything. pls !
hope mondae everything g0nna be alrytex.
yeahhs. hehees. stop here. bbuaix.

- dun let todaez's disapp0iints cast a shad0w on tml dreams.

im breakingd0wnnn.

2005-03-24T18:46:00.000-08:00

im here to updatez. sighhs`
things reallie happen to fast.
i simply h0pe she dun exist.
n0w i tink i haf to solve everything myself.
blah. . blah. . blah. .
can deyy stop telling me things bout dem.
i duno wad to do. i g0nna breakd0wn.
can give me tymex to solve wad i had to solve first.
i had enuff. reallie enuff of diis problems.

i will stop saying those unhappie thingy.
those problem are just killing mieehx
.once its lost, its lost foreva.*
miss hiim damm much
.im thinking whether i exist in his world.
but i just wna say. ILOVEHIM!
nothing could explain how much he mean tuu me.

quite busy in skool dis few daezz.
becoz of the class decor.
staying back for almost three daezz.
but we diid nuthing. boo-
coz some ppl out dere are making trouble.
dun mind mieehx scolding. they SARKS!
iHATEher!

2005-03-24T16:50:00.000-08:00

bEhInD uR smiLe ; ii kNoE dErE aRe tEaRs .
bUt ii wAnTt eUu tOoO kNoE .
bEhInD uR tEarS dErE iiShh mieehx .
ii wiiLL aLwAeezz bE dErE fOr eUu .
ii cAn't sEe mYsELf lOvInG
aNyBoDy bUt eUu .
eUu aRe mY sOuL ;
eUu aRe tHe rEaSoNs wHy im aLiVee .
eUu aRe mY eVeRyThInG!!

iiLOVEeuu*

hehees.

2005-03-20T16:00:00.000-08:00

wO yUaN bIaN cHeNg tOnG hUa Li Ni aI dEr nA Ge TiAn ShI.
ZhAnG sHuAnG shOu BiAn cHeNg cHii pAnG sHoU hU nI.
nI yAo xIaNg xIn wO mEn hUi xIaNg tOnG hUa gU sHii Li ;
XiN fU KuAi Li sHii JiE JuU.

weehees~

2005-03-19T17:09:00.000-08:00

You're the innocent girl next door. You are
friendly, cheerful, kind, and happy. You like
to spread your happiness around making people
feel warm and joyous. To do this you like to
bake cookie and muffins while giving kind
compliments. Plus you actually give apples to
your teachers. You're pure and innocent and
most likely haven't broken many rules. Everyone
loves you. How can they not?

What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by

L O V E ;;

2005-03-19T17:03:00.000-08:00

To Love Is Nothing. To Be Loved Is Something.
To Love And Be Loved Is Everything !!

You May Only Be One Person To The World,
But You May Also Be The World To One Person.

Don't Marry A Person You Can Live With,
Marry Somebody You Can't Live Without.

Friendship Often Ends In Love,
But In Friendship-Never.

Kindness In Words Creates Confidence,
Kindness In Thinking Creates Profoundfess,
Kindness In Giving Creates Love.

Love Will Die If Held Too Tightly,
Love Will Fly If Held Too Lightly.

Love Is Like Standing In Wet Cement. The Longer You Stay,
The Harder It Is To Leave......
And You Can Never Go Without Leaving Your Shoes Behind.

You Know When You Love Someone When You Want Them To .

Even If Their Happiness Means That You're Not Part Of It.

i guess i need euu.

2005-03-19T11:44:00.000-08:00

emmms. skool g0nna re-open soon. yeahhs?
still g0rt pile and pile of hwk haben do..
who g0nna save mieehx? ahahas~
timez reallie flies. .
finally hadd a chance to chat with my b0atiez.
sHe rAwkkkks!

oh yahh ;; yesterdaez my sweetiez kuzin came my hse.
she keep crying and her dad scold her.
pathetic sehhx. ((:
i finally finishh my h0me econ alreadyy.
h0ping by todaez i will finishh all my hwk.
if not i g0nna diex on m0ndaez.
bleahhs~ my grandma came my hse and stay.
she was like keep nagging. aiy0h, can't stand it.

-wo hui bian cheng tong hua li ni ai der na ge tian shi mahs?

ai qing xuan ya.

2005-03-18T14:45:00.000-08:00

ai qing xuan ya ,,
i have fallen down the cliff of love
fallen too deeply dat i cant climb back out
the speed of falling is way too fast
too late to set foot on the future
your love lingers again and again
disturbing my breathing
how should i run away ,, i cannot control it
i have fallen down the cliff of love
recalling your cuteness ,, foolishly still waiting
thinking that you will still come back
your face slowly leaves
time will soon bury
me disappearing too fast ,, i cannot handle dis.
i love you *

wiithouteu*

2005-03-18T11:15:00.000-08:00

ell0ox. im back to blog againn. miss me n0rt? haha~
sighh- why alwaez the pers0n ii like,
otherz will like? just can't understand.
nVm, he will nvr be replace, no matter wad.
skool holidaez g0nna pass s0on.
h0pe wen skool re-open,
everything will go well for me.

shiat~ haben finish my skool hwk yet.
g0nna finishh it all by todaez.
haf been going out the pass few daez.
todaez g0nna be guai kia stay at hmee.
mmm, went hereen yesterdaez,
bought a new wallet. so small-
but its niice larhhs.
kkaes, g0tten st0p here.
take care worrs~